Long time, No blog
Boy, its been a while since i've done this, the whole blogging thing. Feels like forever ago, how time flies. My sons are growing, at what seems faster than ever. The house is always in a state of chaos, I cant seem to catch up and keep it in order anymore. I quit trying to really, its a waste of energy. Its like trying to hang your laundry out to dry in a raining thunderstorm. Pointless. Not to mention how I'm always feeling bad, either my endometriosis is flaring or ive got some other issue going on. Its hard to be productive these days. My husbands working a lot, his business has been doing great and we are so very grateful for that, it can be stressful at times but we know its nothing that we cant handle, especially with God on our side.
The days seem longer in the winter and when its colder outside I find it hard to be energized lately. I pull most of my daily reactiveness from the weather, if its snowing all I wanna do is watch out the windows, build a fire in the fireplace I don't have and snuggle up and watch movies all day. Rain? Nothing, its a guaranteed lazy day, that's easy. Sunny days tho, I want to clean and be on my feet and feel accomplished. There's not many sunny warm days in the winter. Go figure. I feel like i've lost my peppiness and bubbly personality here lately. And I'm sure it shows, I notice it. Out of my groove you could say. We all get in slumps now and again and I'm definitely in one. I feel like I'm whining, and I hate that. So no I'm not whining, just letting things off my chest. I don't like putting my emotional faults on my husband, he works hard and wants to come home and be comfortable, surrounded by peaceful thoughts and a happy atmosphere. I wish I had been giving that but so far 2016 been horrible, for me anyway. I feel like my mind is falling apart. I'm always tired, cramping or hurting or just plain exhausted.
My sons keep me busy and I know that's a part of being a mom. You never really get rest, even at night I just cant seem to get those 8 hours of sleep, uninterrupted sleep. Its all mind over matter, and I try to be as positive as I can but here lately its been harder, harder to get up, harder to smile, harder to look in the mirror and like who I see. I need to get back into my Bible studies, I know that's a BIG part of where ive been failing. I always feel uplifted when I'm in His word. Always. Just praying that soon, things will turn around. I know they can, and will. All things are possible with Christ. (Matt 19:26) So that's where I leave you, on a higher note at least a little encouragement for today. Until next time.
