News Flash

I am sitting here just thrilled first of all because after a week of no internet or cable (10 days actually) I can finally update about the past 2 weeks. We finished the house, moved in, spent our 1st Christmas here, had a dinner here, is having another on the 1st and couldn't have enjoyed it more. This Christmas was probably the best I have had in a LONG time! It was wonderful other than being stressed about keeping a neat and tidy house because of the move and such, but we got snow! 5 inches or so! It was beautiful. I haven't ever had a white Christmas and what do ya know it came this year! Yippee! AJ loved it of course! As December comes to a close I am reminded that I am to have a new years resolution which also reminds me I failed to keep the one I made last year (lose 10-15lbs). Blah! And what do u think I still want to achieve? To be healthy and back to a smaller size. I'm not so much worried about my weight its how my clothes fit and how I feel that matters. Weight is just a number but as long as I am healthy I will be satisfied. But there's more that im tacking onto my list. I want to achieve goals that I used to think were too high. I read something somewhere that we are our reason for stopping something from happening or reaching a goal we thought impossible to complete. We must have faith that we can do something. Like I need to have faith in myself to stop drinking cokes and to eat healthy. If i tell myself I cant do it, how helpful is that? We can have all the support in the world and fail at it if our minds/hearts are not into it. So I am wanting to have a new look on things. I will uplift myself and try to keep a positive outlook on certain things that im not so sure about. Im nervous about going back to college but if i have faith in my abilities and feel confident that I can get my degree in something then by-golly I should. This is just a theory Ill let u know how it all comes out when I get to the other side. :P

I want to start writing again.

I love poetry and I used to write at least 2 a day when i was in highschool. Some might not of been worth reading but at least i did it. I have prob wrote maybe 8 or 10 all year. wow. sad. I need to find my inspiration again and get back into my hobby's. Being a mom, wife, and other things really distract you from the things you once did and had as "free time" I rarely get that anymore. But I can see 2011 coming and I am trying to visualize what it will be like and I have no clue what to expect. I am thankful that we have a place to call our own when so many do not. God has been good to us in 2010. And I just pray that I can do something to glorify Him in ways I didnt think possible for years to come! Happy New year!

Your wedding day

So as I was glancing around at a lot of my friends wedding pictures I got a little sad. I didnt have a "wedding". We had a ceremony... I always thought i'd get married in a church with a beautiful dress that made me look like a princess. I still havnt had a day where I felt like the most beautiful woman on earth (like most women do on their wedding day) I dont regret what we did because it was special. I knew Tony and I were destined to be married and we were 2 people in love so we got married!!I told him since we couldnt have a wedding that I wanted to throw a big 5 yr anniversary party thats only 2 years from now! :D Can't wait for that. You cant turn back time and do things over again and I wouldn't. I mean everything worked according to how it was supposed to be and look where we are now! Happy and still very much in love and now homeowners! Thats huge! How about you ladies? Did u have a big wedding or a ceremony? Anything you would change?!

My son's a smart 2 year old!

I havnt updated much about AJ in a while so this blog is purely about him! :) He's prob around 25-26 lbs. He's 26 months old he will be 27 months Dec 30th. He has all of his teeth finally and is starting to sleep better! For those of you who dont know about his past sleep habits they were just awful. Lets just saw we napped nightly instead of slept. (not so fun) Anyways, he is so smart. I tell ya he remembers EVERYTHING. Every cartoon character and their catch phrases like "Buzz lightyear to the rescue" or Spongebob's "I'm ready! Im ready!" Its awesome. He knows a few colors specifically green, red, and blue he remembers well the others he kind of remembers at times. He recognizes his name "AJ" if he see's it written down. Knows the letter by looking at the "A, B, and C" we're working on the others. I think he's got "D" down now not sure. Probably does. He can count to 10 and after that he says random numbers. Knows all of his animals and their sounds. He can tell you a few shapes. Loves to color and draw (like most toddlers) he remembers when we go to other people houses I dont even have to tell him where we are he knows. Trying to potty train but ive held off for a few weeks since we are moving. I dont want to put a lot of new things on him at once so the potty hasnt been brought up in a while. Im hoping to really crack down hard after the holidays! I think he's ready, we shall see!

He loves to share toys with anyone except his cousin Garisen. lol He knows their related I guess. He knows what "boobies" are. haha and what a "wee wee" is thanks to daddy. He knows his body parts and where they are. He helps me pick up his toys if I ask. Helps me with laundry and dishes when he asks. lol It's just great. He's getting so big. I cannot believe its been over 2 yrs since he was born! I do miss the baby stage but I am loving this age right now! He gives me so many hugs and kisses. He reminds me daily about why I love being a mommy! Nothing in this world could take his place. I am wondering now though when would be the best time to plan a second baby? I am wanting to do so much like go back to school but my degree will take 2-3 years or so in most fields and I dont want to wait that long, but then I think its going to be so much harder going back to school and having 2 babies! I guess in Gods timing it will happen just like it did with our home! But I def know AJ is one of a kind :) He's such a great kid

Christmas Times a'comin'!

The first bit of snow has finally fallen here in North Georgia today. Sadly it didnt stick at all. Im hoping though it wont until we are moved. That might make it a bit difficult for us if there's ice and snow everywhere! It was so pretty though coming down and it made me feel even more "jolly" about Christmas and winter time! There's nothing like beautiful snow! I have to say that our home is almost finished. All thats left is a few cosmetic things (lights, touch up painting and caulking,) plus the sanding and coating of the hardwood then we'll be able to move in! AJ is finally starting to understand I think that we have a new home. He knows where his room is when we go there and he shows us each time! Its so cute! He already loves it in the mess that its in lol Im hoping he can create many wonderful memories and enjoy every second we have in our home! God willing!

Through this process me and Tony are finding out so much more about each other. Like I dont know how to use a drill properly or how to hold a saw right when cutting wood, and he stops at nothing til somethings done and I laugh at him when he hurts himself. Cant help it. All in all we've become closer and I thank God for that. They say after 2 years the usual marriage loses it "flame" but im happy to say we still get butterflies and that ooey gooey love feeling just about everyday! How could I not? Just look at him :) HAHA anyways... Christmas is so very close just 13 days from today.... wow! I am happy to add that our Christmas shopping is done and now our focus is on packing and moving next week (joy) We had someone tell us they wanted our old appliances, couch, and table but he hasnt bought them yet :\ maybe we can get rid of them before we move! Thats all im worried about! But God will work it all out, im sure of it. Look at what all he's done already?! Ive had a certain song stuck in my head for the past week if you havnt heard it listen to it sometime its "Lead Me" by Sanctus Real. Awesome song. I just love it..

A little bit of this & that

Well its almost here and I am feeling anxious, excited, nervous but most of all thankful. We will be home owners Friday, December 3rd 2010. Wow.

Well any who off that subject I've just been carrying around a load of emotions lately and opinions I wanted to release. Feel free to express along with me or just share your views on it. (which ever) I can't believe its only 23 days til Christmas. It has come so fast I remember when it turned to spring and me sitting around anxious about Christmas coming and here it is! Before we know it 2011 will be here.
I made a new years resolution last year that i def didn't keep but for a few weeks (like most people) to eat healthier and lose a little unhealthy weight. Well im still the same size I was a year ago. At least I havn't gained weight but I am still down about not losing any either. What have I been doing all year? I am so used to just eating whenever and whatever and before I get pregnant (if i do) I want to be 10-15 lbs lighter than I am right now to keep from gaining more than 155 lbs! I was 120lbs when I conceived A.J. I am currently 148. Thats almost 30lbs! Yikes! To me I dont think i look that much bigger than I was but there's no way i can fit into my old clothes so obviously I am it's just proportioned evenly. So I am hoping to start a diet of some sort, cook healthier food, eat less fat and consume less sugar. (my weakness)

I am having trouble finding a paint color to do our living room. I dont want to do a brown or tan because our couch will probably be a brown color (our new couch). So I was thinking a light yellow or maybe a blue? Idk we are hopefully going paint shopping sunday or monday evening. The whole house has to be primed (inside) before we can apply the colors.

I think the thing I am most excited about other than getting a house of course is my new washer and dryer. I might enjoy doing laundry for a few weeks lol We also found out we wont have to pay a house payment til feb. So thats awesome.

God has truly blessed us this year and we are so undeserving.

Off that subject now I guess the other "emotions" I mentioned earlier would be just certain things people have said or things I have heard over time about certain things. I dont agree that its ok to down someone who doesn't agree with the same kind of mothering tips you do, or if you clothe diaper or if you dont. Or whether or not you give your kids tylenol or u want a water birth with no drugs. I had a wonderful labor and delivery and YES I had an epi, and YES i was induced and it went great! I think its all about personal choice and opinion no debate needed. Simple. lol Not to mention my son happens to be extremely healthy and smart to top it all off. (proud mom here) Id do it all over again if I had to. I would probably choose not to be induced again unless needed.. bc I wanted to have that experience of my water breaking it being a surprise!

College- hmmm why do I keep putting you off? I always knew as a teen I would go to college and man I have been so lazy about it. I seriously just get so sketchy about it when I try to plan it out, I think to myself ok yes I want to be a nurse Ill do that then ill change my mind again and say no no a teacher thats a way better job for me but there I am again doubting myself. I think I just get so discouraged about my capabilities that I feel like im stuck self-consciously. In Highschool I never studied, always had good grades. but the few months I did go to college it was so much more. I think I was overwhelmed. idk... But I am hoping and praying that God just open a door and a career that He has planned because something has got to change im 22 years old and I need to start MY career. I love being a mom and being home and maybe by the time I do get my degree AJ will be in school or pre K anyways! So maybe after the house gets settled and we get everything situated and done I can start on finding myself again and get out there. I just have to put my trust in God and hope for the best. He will show me the way.

But all in all its been a great few weeks. The stress of our renovating will prob set in quick we have SO much packed into the next 5 days that im sure come monday Tony and I will be exhausted. His goal to have done from friday-sunday night is to have all the flooring ripped up and out (kitchen/dining, living room, hallway, 3 bedrooms.) new floor installed (hardwood) in the kitchen & living room. Then install the base cabinets in kitchen because our counter top guys will be coming monday to measure for the counter top! Phew, what a load. lol Not to mention cleaning, trips to the dump and store, driving to Marietta to gt the cabinets, and go to buy all the supplies! Wish us luck and pray we dont kill each other LOL

Excited much?

As most of you know we are in the midst of closing on our very first home! The closing date is set around Dec 6th. Not long at all just 36 days! As soon as we close I will be heading there to paint. It has to get done quick because when tony starts pulling up hardwood, cutting hardwood, and sanding I cant paint til its done or else dust with settle in the paint! SO im hoping to get all the painting done before he starts on the floor!! :) We are trying to finish in 2 weeks so that we are in by Christmas. Tony will be busy with work during the day so we will be doing most of the big stuff (cabinets & flooring) when he gets off work and on weekends. Luckily those take a few days each. It's so exciting getting a new home.

The house needs some work, cleaning, and painting but when we are done its going to look great!!!I will be of course documenting all we do, updating with pictures of our changes and renovations. We are going to have a few sleepless nights im sure but it'll all be worth it. We're hoping to have a few friends and family members available to help a few days so that it can go much quicker! We told them we'd feed em if they help. lol Only thing that stinks is it'll be in the COLD because we cant run the heat while doing hardwood... lol brrr! Here's the list of items we had to buy or will buy for the house and all that needs done! Wish us luck and if u feel compelled to help just stop on by :)


Paint living room, kitchen/dining, hallway, bathrooms (2), bedrooms(3), front door
Pull up carpet in 3 bedrooms
Pull up hardwood in the rest of the house (except in bathrooms has tile)
Widen the doorway into kitchen (having help doing this so its done right)
Clean up the mess
Fix 2 small plumbing leaks in bathroom
lay 1,100 sq ft of hardwood, sand it and coat it. Its about 3 days of work
Install kitchen cabinets, sink, and faucet
Do back splash in kitchen-Subway Travertine tile
Install new ceiling fans
Re-build back porch (its awfully built) might do this later
Replace back door
Paint the inside of garage
Pressure wash front porch
Move everything in!

It's Fall Ya'll

Well since my last blog entry my focus has changed. I no longer want to be a mom of two (right now). I want to be a home owner, move into a bigger place, get back into college, find a good job, and catch up on a few months of lost sleep. And even focus on being a better wife and mom. I can def use a little bit more patience in a few areas.

We are in the midst of trying to buy a house, we have put in 2 different offers on the same house and we should know whether or not we get it by the end of this week. Its very exciting but stressful as well.

On top of the house hunting, sleepless nights and the daily wife/mom duties my grandmother has been sick; deathly sick, so I am up to the hospital (30 min away) every day or every other day for a few hours. So to keep from over stressing and blowing a valve in my brain I try to pray that God ease all my tension. Focus all of my energy on Him and just breathe.

Ok. I can do that. Breathe.


Making my plans as the day goes and just taking a step back and preparing myself for whatever comes. Married life is still wonderful, I am so much in love with the man I fell for over 4 years ago. I couldn't of asked for a better husband and father. It's been a great 3 years I admit the first year or so was rough, finding somewhere to live, getting pregnant, preparing for baby, job issues, money issues... but God has brought us a long way. And we are oh so blessed. I am looking forward to many more years to come, we actually gave each other foot massages tonight, which was nice :) Its the small things that count the most I guess. We havnt done that in months...

All in all I guess my priorities have altered and I have desperately been praying for guidance and for Gods will to be done. So far gone differently but good all at the same time.

House Search is on!

I couldn't believe it when we walked in this brand new home built in 2004, how trashed it was. Whoever had built it rented it out and whoever lived there did not take care of the house at all. All 3 bedrooms have carpet which is now stained very badly with dog poop and urine... gross I know. And the smell is awful. But the bright side is they are all pretty good sized rooms, and the master has a full bathroom and there's also one in the hallway. The living room, hallway, and dining room had hardwood floors. They dont look so great either, in each groove between boards it's black (as in dirt, and garbage) apparently they didn't believe in mopping either. Tony wants to rip it all up, becuase it looks awful anyway, and start new and fresh, which I agree with. He can do it himself which will save us tons of money. So we plan on putting harwood throughout the house except the kitchen and bathrooms. And lastly the kitchen has nothing. No cabinets, no appliances, but on a good note we can make it how we want it. Starting new and fresh.

We havn't put in an offer yet I believe we will be starting that process soon though, and I am hoping we get it for as low as possible (of course) so we can save money for updates and paint. It also has a 2 car garage, paved driveway, front porch, and 1 acre of land. It's on a dead end road we only have 1 neighbor on one side and its close to town but not in town. When and if we get it it should only take 3-4 weeks to fix up if we can get it all fixed in time. It's hard not to get excited but I really think God chose this house for us and that this is the one. There's no house that your going to find thats perfect unless you have lots of money, and we dont. We expected to do work and with this house we can make it our own. We will have the satisfaction in each room to say "we did that" and raise AJ in his first house! I'll keep everyone updated with pictures as we renovate and fix things I know it's going to be a complete 360 from what is now!

A little about me..

I am 1 of 4 kids. It originally started out as just me and my younger sister Elishia. We are only 16 month apart in age. When my parents divorced in 2004 they both remarried a year later. My dad and his new wife had a son (she didn't have children) and I finally had a little brother! He's turning 5 this December.

Then to make a very long story short we discovered we had an older sister named Lauren who is 10 months older than me! We have the same dad. So now I am the second of 4 kids.

Time has seemed to race on and on over the years. I cannot believe I am 22 years old and I am married first of all, and a mom! I am thrilled to be who I am and where I am. I never imagined it to be this great. Of course there are bad days, (AJ's whiny/ill all day or me and the husband argue, or we're broke for a month at a time) But God always gets us through. Always. I made Him my foundation and He hasn't crumbled, and He wont.

We live in a very small apartment in a very small town. In July of 2011 we've lived here 3 years. It's been ok and I'm content with it but we have very limited parking and space which makes it nearly impossible to have comfortable company over. Which is very annoying, I love having company and friends over but this place makes it a struggle. We are hoping to build a home within the next 5-6 months after purchasing a lot or some land. We're kind of putting it out in the air and letting God move it into place in His time.

I am very excited about Thanksgiving and Christmas this year since AJ is 2, he better understands whats going on and is a little more excited about gifts and seeing family. His second birthday party was a blast and he had a lot of fun. He's so smart, he can count to 10, he can say his ABC's (missing a few letters of course) but he repeats and remembers everything! Already putting sentences together as well, knows a few opposites (up-down, hot-cold, go-stop, yes-no, light-dark). He's such a joy! I cannot wait to give him a little brother or sister to teach all the things he knows.

I seems I've lived to tell a lot in my 22 years, I wonder how my point of view and experience will heighten in time?

Baby Fever?

Well it's been 2 years, 9 months, and 1 week since I got pregnant with AJ! I kept telling myself over and over this past year, it's not baby fever it's just pregnancy fever, your not ready for another child. And I think that was it but now that my only child has turned 2 it has changed dramatically.

My husbands afraid of having a daughter and I desperately want a "mother-daughter" relationship in my life. I know I only want 2 children and we only live one life. I know it's also not my choice but God's. Each night for that past 6 months or so I have prayed for a daughter in secret, hoping He hears my prayers! Tony prayed for a son, now I am praying for a little girl.

Don't get me wrong my son is an absolute joy. He's such a sweetie pie and stuck to me like glue when we are together. I delight in the way he talks, and hugs and kisses me with such love. But there's something about a daughter's love, the bond my mom and I have. I want that. So until something happens in the future I'll keep on praying that God's will be done and that maybe just maybe we can decorate in pink one day!